Today, I’m starting an experiment. It’s from my own point of view, of course, but it’s also something that affects many, many authors. I know that it’ll be challenging, and sometimes, it might even be ugly. It’s also necessary.
I’m going to take a good, deep look at money.
And the blocks we have about it. The beliefs we have about it. The limits we set ourselves about it. All those things going on in the dark, deep zone of subconscious beliefs, family rules and hidden no-nos.
And even better? I’m going to document the work I’m doing on my own blocks right here. So you can see what’s going on, and how to deal with that. I’ll model that work for you, so you can follow a real-life example.
Well, I’ve been thinking about the direction of this blog and how it can be useful for authors. And even though I love you, my readers, I believe it hasn’t been as useful as it could be. That was a sobering thought.
And the next impulse came from looking at all KDP statements from the last three years. I started self-publishing in 2013 (under a pen name). So I pulled all the data and looked at how many books I sold and how much money I made in royalties.
In other words, I finally took a good look at my business as author.
That was very sobering.
And I believe it’s not my writing. I believe my books are fun to read.
But I also believe that expectations, blocks and inner limits affect results massively. Which means it’s time to start really working on those. And while I’ll look at other things later this year, I want to start with the obvious: Money Blocks.
I’m inviting you to come along on this journey into the underbelly of the mind, into the desert of limitations and the maze of rules. There will be surprises, and sometimes, great ahas. And much to let go.
In order to prepare for that work, I’m doing some tapping today. Because there is always resistance to change. Laying the ground work for easing into change is important at the beginning.
So here we go:
Even though it makes me sad that I’ve been sabotaging myself in the realm of money, I’m totally okay the way I am, and I’m now allowing myself to change and shift everything I believe and have learned about money.
Even though looking at my numbers makes me want to weep, I’m totally okay the way I am, and I’m now ready to take action on shifting my money mindset.
Even though it feels like hard work to shift beliefs, expectations and rules of a lifetime, I’m really okay the way I am, and I’m now choosing to make it an exciting adventure with amazing shifts in my money mindset.
Have you discovered any money blocks of your own?
How did that make you feel?
What happened while you were tapping?
And finally – what are you writing right now?
Would love to hear from you!
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PS: I will report on my shifts next week before going into the first actual belief about money.
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So I tapped with the phrases I wrote out in the article. And several interesting things happened:
First, sadness came up. About sabotaging myself, about not being rich, about not fulfilling my expectations. Quite understandable really. I kept tapping.
Next, something very curious happened: Not having a lot of money felt like I was doing the right thing. Of course, I knew that a belief was behind that feeling, a belief that I was following to the t. Hence the good feeling of doing something right.
So I took a closer look at that belief and figured out it was a strong one in my family. (I will talk about family rules about money later in the series.) When I grew up, it was considered a good thing NOT to be rich.
This is actually something people and families will do if they do not have something they would like to have. They turn the whole thing around and declare the lack of it to be a virtue. It’s a very human thing to do, and you can see it almot everywhere.
I realized that in my family (sorry, Mom), getting by with little money, or just having enough had become an ideal. Being frugal is still a virtue for her. On the other hand, anything that we didn’t strictly need was a luxury. And of course, I soaked that up as a kid.
Now, this is definitely something I will explore in depth later on when the family system comes into play. However, I wanted to show you how tapping on a seemingly simple sentence can lead to quite deep ahas and introspection.
And that is fodder for more tapping.
Even though Im not using Tappin in my daily life, I would really try to start doing so. 2016 is a new year, 2015 is behind, with all changes in my life, positive and some difficult. Im no healthy and determined to stay well, in both body, soul and spirit. So please keep me in your lists. I always look forward to read your mails, and hope to continue with that. We all need some inspiring thoughts on an off, and you are one of my inspirations.
I wish you all the best in the world,
of course, I’m keeping you in my list. And I’m very happy that you feel inspired by my blog and newsletter.
All the best for you, as well, and a big hug.